Happy birthday to myself! Finally turned 18!! :D

I can finally go to clubs without worrying about being kicked out now that I have finally reached the legal age. ;) The first thing I did in Monday was to go to back and applied for a Dankort. Can't wait. I have also bought some CDs online last week and they due to arrive soon. One of them has just arrived yesterday.

By the way,

being a grown up = freedom to choose my own path of life = more responsibilty?

Hurra, Hurra, Hurraaaaa!!

HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO NIKOLAI, MY BELOVED LITTLE BROTHER!!!

Flags Of Our Fathers

Mmmhh.. What's new in my life? Well, I just watched an old movie of three years. It's Flags of Our Fathers. I bought the DVD two days ago when it was on sale in the supermarket. So lucky. I have been dying to watch the movie since last year, but could not find it anywhere near my boarding school.

The Flags of Our Fathers is a documentary, war-genre movie, based on a book of the same title about the seven men who were involved in the flag raising on top of Mount Suribachi in an island called Iwo Jima during the Second World War. The seven men were Sgt. Mike Strank, Pfc. Rene Gagnon, Pfc. Ira Hayes, Cpl. Harlon Block, Pfc. Franklin Sousley, Sgt. Hank Hansen, and Pfc. Ralph Ignatowski, as well as their Navy Corpsman, PhM2. John "Doc" Bradley. The nickname "Doc" is a colloqual address for a corpsman (medical care-giver available in many fleet or Marine units on extended deployment), commonly used in the Marine US Corps as a sign of respect.

Instead of a linear storyline like the book, the film is told in media res, with events of the Battle shown through a series of flashbacks. Not only the events of the battle, the movie also shows the after effects that of the raising flag events on their lives. The writter of the book, James Bradley, is actually the very own son of one of the flag raisers - exactly John Bradley.

I am truly moved every time I watch this movie. Ít is a good reminder to us that superheroes exist only in comic books and cartoon movies.

I really think you guys should see this movie if you haven't. It's really good. And in case you didn't know, this movie is the best companion to the Letters From Iwo Jima, a movie about the same battle in the Japanese's point of view.

P.S. The actor Ryan Phillipe is soooooo good looking!!!! XD <3

Ryan, how about some asian chick? :-*

Fairy Godmother please help me find my old self
This world is trying to make me less like myself
And be more like somebody else
Fairy Godmother I miss my little old self
The little girl of pure heart with a smile on her lips

No matter how difficult life is

*

(Fairy Godmother - xiaozhi [aka. ME])

Whatever happened, happened

My days have recently been filled with a typical question, the WHAT IF questions. What if I had done this instead of that? What if I used a different way to express what I was feeling? At times those question just more and more ridiculous, like what if I wore that outfit instead of this one? I never understood what I have done to have changed his mind. Everything was good. Did I do something that scared the hell outta him? Did I say something wrong? Was I not good enough? I questioned myself those questions and could not find the answer.

Everytime I asked my family for advice, as I could not really rely on my friends for stuff like this, I always got the same answer, "It's not you, it's him." I always got mad every time I heard them saying that. I mean, come on! It could not be him! He was perfect, sweet, kind, friendly and all that. He was interested and we were just clicked. It could not be him. It must be me, and no one else but me. I must have done something terribly wrong to drive him away or I must have ruined this so called once-in-a-lifetime-chance.

Anyway now that some time has passed, I began to understand what my family mean. They were right, and they weren't just giving me the same cliches. I just wasn't listening well enough.

Whatever his reasons for even giving me those little moments of attetions were his reasons alone. I couldn't have done anything that would have made him think differently about me, and that's just something I'm starting to accept. I shouldn't consider changing myself just so some guy can like me. He did what he did, and I had and still have no power of that.

This seems obvious to a good number of people, but I didn't understand it until now. I had feelings for a guy, and he didn't have them back. I finally accepted that and have moved on. Just thought I had to share this a bit to make me feel a tad better of myself. :)

I wonder if anyone has experienced the same?

Sometimes, good things fall apart so better things can fall together...

SO WHAT?!

Na, na, na, na, na, na, na
Na, na, na, na, na, na
Na, na, na, na, na, na, na
Na, na, na, na, na, na

I guess I just lost my boyfriend
I don't know where he went
So I'm gonna spend my money
I'm not gonna pay his rent

I got a brand new attitude
And I'm gonna wear it tonight
I'm gonna get in trouble
I wanna start a fight

Na, na, na, na, na, na, na
I wanna start a fight
Na, na, na, na, na, na, na
I wanna start a fight

So, so what, I'm still a rock star
I got my rock moves and I don't need you
And guess what, I'm havin' more fun
And now that we're done I'm gonna show you tonight

I'm alright, I'm just fine and you're a fool
So, so what, I am a rock star
I got my rock moves and I don't want you tonight

The waiter just took my table
And gave it to Jessica Simps
I guess I'll go sit with drum boy
At least he'll knows how to sing

What if this song's on the radio?
Somebody's gonna die
I'm gonna get in trouble
My ex will start a fight

Na, na, na, na, na, na, na
He's gonna start a fight
Na, na, na, na, na, na, na
Yeah, he's gonna get in a fight

So, so what, I'm still a rock star
I got my rock moves and I don't need you
And guess what, I'm havin' more fun
And now that we're done I'm gonna show you tonight

I'm alright, I'm just fine and you're a fool
So, so what, I am a rock star
I got my rock moves and I don't want you tonight

You weren't there, you never were
You want it all but that's not fair
I gave you life, I gave my all
You weren't there, you let me fall

*

(So What - Pink)

Just Like A Pill

I'm lyin' here on the floor where you left me
I think I took too much
I'm crying here, what have you done?
I thought it would be fun

I can't stay on your life support, there's a
shortage in the switch,
I can't stay on your morphine, cuz its making me itch
I said I tried to call the nurse again but she's being a little bitch,
I think I'll get outta here, where I can

Run just as fast as I can
To the middle of nowhere
To the middle of my frustrated fears
And I swear you're just like a pill
Instead of makin' me better, you keep makin' me ill
You keep makin' me ill

I haven't moved from the spot where you left me
This must be a bad trip
All of the other pills, they were different
Maybe I should get some help

I can't stay on your life support, there's a
shortage in the switch,
I can't stay on your morphine, cuz its making me itch
I said I tried to call the nurse again but she's being a little bitch,
I think I'll get outta here, where I can

Run just as fast as I can
To the middle of nowhere
To the middle of my frustrated fears
And I swear you're just like a pill
Instead of makin' me better, you keep makin' me ill
You keep makin' me ill

*

(Just Like A Pill - Pink)