My days have recently been filled with a typical question, the WHAT IF questions. What if I had done this instead of that? What if I used a different way to express what I was feeling? At times those question just more and more ridiculous, like what if I wore that outfit instead of this one? I never understood what I have done to have changed his mind. Everything was good. Did I do something that scared the hell outta him? Did I say something wrong? Was I not good enough? I questioned myself those questions and could not find the answer.
Everytime I asked my family for advice, as I could not really rely on my friends for stuff like this, I always got the same answer, "It's not you, it's him." I always got mad every time I heard them saying that. I mean, come on! It could not be him! He was perfect, sweet, kind, friendly and all that. He was interested and we were just clicked. It could not be him. It must be me, and no one else but me. I must have done something terribly wrong to drive him away or I must have ruined this so called once-in-a-lifetime-chance.
Anyway now that some time has passed, I began to understand what my family mean. They were right, and they weren't just giving me the same cliches. I just wasn't listening well enough.
Whatever his reasons for even giving me those little moments of attetions were his reasons alone. I couldn't have done anything that would have made him think differently about me, and that's just something I'm starting to accept. I shouldn't consider changing myself just so some guy can like me. He did what he did, and I had and still have no power of that.
This seems obvious to a good number of people, but I didn't understand it until now. I had feelings for a guy, and he didn't have them back. I finally accepted that and have moved on. Just thought I had to share this a bit to make me feel a tad better of myself. :)
I wonder if anyone has experienced the same?
Everytime I asked my family for advice, as I could not really rely on my friends for stuff like this, I always got the same answer, "It's not you, it's him." I always got mad every time I heard them saying that. I mean, come on! It could not be him! He was perfect, sweet, kind, friendly and all that. He was interested and we were just clicked. It could not be him. It must be me, and no one else but me. I must have done something terribly wrong to drive him away or I must have ruined this so called once-in-a-lifetime-chance.
Anyway now that some time has passed, I began to understand what my family mean. They were right, and they weren't just giving me the same cliches. I just wasn't listening well enough.
Whatever his reasons for even giving me those little moments of attetions were his reasons alone. I couldn't have done anything that would have made him think differently about me, and that's just something I'm starting to accept. I shouldn't consider changing myself just so some guy can like me. He did what he did, and I had and still have no power of that.
This seems obvious to a good number of people, but I didn't understand it until now. I had feelings for a guy, and he didn't have them back. I finally accepted that and have moved on. Just thought I had to share this a bit to make me feel a tad better of myself. :)
I wonder if anyone has experienced the same?
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