I shouldn't have trusted you....

Never thought that someone, whom you trusted with your heart, whom you thought was the only one who knew you completely turned out to be someone who has the least idea of who you really are. OH BLUE FRIDAY!

You Can't Hurry Love

I need love, love
Ooh, ease my mind
And I need to find time
Someone to call mine

My mama said
You can't hurry love
No, you'll just have to wait
She said love don't come easy
But it's a game of give and take
You can't hurry love
No, you'll just have to wait
Just trust in a good time
No matter how long it takes

How many heartaches must I stand
Before I find the love to let me live again
Right now the only thing that keeps me hanging on
When I feel my strength, ooh, its almost gone

I remember mama said
You can't hurry love
No you'll just have to wait
She said love don't come easy
It's a game of give and take
How long must I wait
How much more must I take
Before loneliness
Will cause my heart, heart to break

No, I can't bear to live my life alone
I grow impatient for a love to call my own
But when I feel that I, I can't go on
Well these precious words keep me hanging on

I remember mama said
You can't hurry love
No, you'll just have to wait
She said love don't come easy
Well, it's a game of give and take
You can't hurry love
No, you'll just have to wait
Just trust in a good time
No matter how long it takes, now break!

Now love, love don't come easy
But I keep on waiting
Anticipating for that soft voice
To talk to me at night
For some tender arms
Hold me tight
I keep waiting
Ooh, till that day
But it ain't easy (love don't come easy)
No, you know it ain't easy

My mama said
You cant hurry love
No, you'll just have to wait
She said love don't come easy
It's a game of give and take...

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(You Can't Hurry Love - Phil Collins)

:)

I never thought of bumping into him on the way home. Me with a big plastic bag from Jysk and my iPod. Perfect. Anyway, this meeting really gave me a reminder of how handsome you look. :) Two weeks no seeing you made my head blurred.

New hair, new ambition!

I got a new haircut today. Nothing special, just layered, but I love my new look. Gotta post a picture sooner  or later. :)

There is something that's been bugging me lately after watching Sex and The City. And no, it's not about sex, not even close to. It's more about my life. Watching New York City through the series makes me realize how big and variety the world truly is. There are so many things in this world that are unknown to us. You know, it makes me thinking for hours. About what I've seen and achieved in my almost-18-years of life and right there, I know what I want. I want something meaningful in life. I just don't want to get stuck in the place I am now forever. Before I went to a boarding school last year, 2 years went by without me being able to remember what I had done, or achieved. School, work, home - those were the only things I did, compare it to my one year at boarding school! I had so much fun, so much to remember in only a year time!  I got to see many different countries and cultures. Now that I am back again, I don't want to have my old life back, when time passes by without any meaning. I don't want to waste my youth. I am going to stay here until I am done with college and that takes 3 years. You know, I just don't want to let my 3 years go to waste and poof! suddenly I have to be ready to go to university without realizing what is going on. Time flies fast and there is absolutely nothing you can do to get it back. There are just so many things I want to try in life while I can, like going to America or England to learn English in-depth, to know the world. I am kindda scared to imagine myself as an old lady without any achievments in life. I am worried, and terrified. Right I don't know what I am talking about anymore. I guess I better stop.

What a wonderful life...

I think I finally know what I want

I began to watch the series Sex and The City yesterday. So typical of me, I seemed to forget that it is highly impossible for a DVD to last only in 25 minutes-time. I was so out of my mind for not seeing that there were 6 episodes, each lasts for about 25 minutes in a disc. I was on disc 6 when I finally realized that the story didn't connect from one DVD to another. Crap. I then thought that I might need to watch it from disc 1 again and am on disc 5 now. :)

I watch the series in English audio and with English subtitle on. You know, this really helps me to add more words to my vocabularies and listen how they pronounce each word at the same time. Moreover, it makes me realize how much I love the language English and how I want to master the language to the point of equality with the native speakers, or even more. I am not trying to sound like an arrogant bitch but I really want to learn English in-depth. I am totaly in love with it! Maybe I should consider taking English as major when I get to University or you know, living in an English-speaking country doesn't sound like a bad idea at all! Well, I just have to pass these 3 years in HTX.

I always thought that the American accent is cool, while British is.. kindda special. I tried to speak like a British, but always ended up like an idiot British-wannabe. I found the accent difficult to learn. Not impossible, just difficult. It requires you to live in England for a quite long time to get the hang of it. I think the same goes to American but I think it's more tolerable? Well, I am just guessing. I love both accents, to tell ya!

>:-(

#1 RULE IN WRITING: NEVER EVER TRY TO WRITE WHEN YOU ARE EMOTIONALLY UNSTABLE.

By writing 'emotionally unstable' I refer to angry, sad, disappointed, too happy and hurt. Why? You see, these feelings can be temporary - which means even though you are so angry at someone now that you feel like tearing that person apart or write the words that are sometimes considered inappropriate, it's better if you take a deep breath, and find something to do. This would greatly save you from regrets or embarassing moments later on. I know what I am talking about, trust me.

Why do I write this all in a sudden? Two minutes ago, I was so emotional and feeling like cursing someone but then, I tried to use my logic and wrote this entry instead. I am now feeling better, still not good, but better. Nothing good will come by cursing, yelling or breaking things when you are upset. It will only make you look like an ignorant-immatured fool. That is pathetic, really.

This is just about self-control, after all. :)

Proud to be Chinese! :)

I came across a group on Facebook and there is this dicussion about being Chinese and all, and I ended up watching this video sung by Andy Lau. An old song, it is, but it makes my Chinese blood burning! I wanna say it now: I AM PROUD TO BE CHINESE, HAS ALWAYS BEEN AND WILL ALWAYS BE!

And the lyric in case you were wondering what Andy is singing about:


Chinese People - Zhong Guo Ren - 中國人

5000 years of wind and rain, ah, hide how
many dreams?
Yellow faces, black eyes, the smiles
are unchanging
8000 years within mountains and rivers,
like a song
No matter where you originate from, or
where you'll eventually be

The same tears, the same pain
We'll leave the experienced hardships within
our hearts
The same blood, the same kind
The future still has dreams, we'll open
them together

Hand in hand don't separate you and me
proudly walk forward
Let the whole world know we are all
Chinese people

P.S. I Love You

I forgot to post an entry of a film, which I watched last Saturday. An old movie, it is. Watched it for the first time about 2 years ago in the cinema and I was deeply touched. The storyplot was kindda unfamiliar to me but who cares?

The movie is about a newly married couple, Holly and Gerry. The death of Jerry, caused by brain tumor makes Holly withdraw herself from outside world, until her family and friends come to celebrate her 30th birthday. A  cake is delivered, and on it there is a message from Gerry. There are10 letters in total,  in which  give her couragement to face life. All ends with the same word: P.S. I Love You.

I love this movie. Hillary Swank and Gerard Butler did a really good job in making this film enjoyable.  It is a good blanding of humor and romance. It can make you laugh now and shed tears moment after. I am impressed that they are not holding back in bringing their characters come to live. Look how Gerard acts as Gerry when he tries to impress Holly by doing some dance, he doesn't hold back and I think that's really cool. You see, the actors and actress here aren't afaid to show their unappealing side, like when Holly chops her teeth in after trippled in the karaoke.

By the way, I love the girlfriends scenes. It's realy touching to see that there exists people like Denise and Sharon, who'd gladly help their best friends Holly when she's having hard times. :)

xD

-----------------Girls--------------

-----------are like apples------

-------on trees. The best ones-----

-----are at the top of the tree.-----

---The boys dont want to reach---

--for the good ones because they--

-r afraid of falling and getting hurt.-

-Instead, they get the rotten apples-

from the ground that arent as good,

but easy. So the apples up top think

something wrong with them when in

-reality they’re amazing. They just—

---have to wait for the right boy to-

----come along, the one who’s-

------------brave enough to--------

----------------climb all--------------

----------------the way--------------

---------------to the top-------------

--------------of the tree---------------

Just some weekly report :)

Woke up at 10 am and stayed in bed until the clock stroke 11 am. I wasn't asleep - just listening to my iPod. :)

Made an omelet with abit Carlsberg, didn't taste that good. Hah. Anyway surprise for everyone, I CLEANED THE WHOLE HOUSE, EVEN MY ROOM! Yes. I vacummed the floor and washed it clean afterwards. I even hang the wet clothes that were just washed. Hah. Something is just not right. XD I don't know myself. I just felt like doing it. I mean, Stephanie did the cleaning? She is the most lazy bum ever in the house! Meh but I felt great afterwards tho. :D Work starts at 5 pm. Awwww... :/

Lovin' this!

...and you broke my glass... :'(

Trust is like a glass. Once is broken, never will it be the same. The cracks are still there, and will always be.

Out Of Reach

new the signs
Wasn't right
I was stupid for a while
Swept away by you
And now I feel like a fool
So confused,
My heart's bruised
Was I ever loved by you?

Out of reach, so far
I never had your heart
Out of reach,
Couldn't see
We were never
Meant to be

Catch myself
From despair
I could drown
If I stay here
Keeping busy everyday
I know I will be OK

But I was
So confused,
My heart's bruised
Was I ever loved by you?

So much hurt,
So much pain
Takes a while
To regain
What is lost inside
And I hope that in time,
You'll be out of my mind
And I'll be over you

Out of reach,
So far
You never gave your heart
In my reach, I can see
There's a life out there
For me

*

(Out of Reach - Gabrielle)

:'(

I don't regret the fact that I was with you. I'm loving those moments. But I deeply regret to meet you when I was 'too away', that you didn't get to see the real me.

Yes, it is :)

Life is like a roller coaster. There's always a station in the end where you have to decide if you want another ride or you just want to get off and leave it all behind.

What I want....

I wanna change the old me and be more positive in life. I wanna learn how to trust, 'cause I know I can trust in you. :)

Bubbly :)

I've been awake for a while now
You've got me feelin' like a child now
'Cause every time I see your bubbly face
I get the tinglees in a silly place

It starts in my toes
And I crinkle my nose
Wherever it goes I always know
That you make me smile
Please stay for a while now
Just take your time
Wherever you go

The rain is fallin' on my window pane
But we are hidin' in a safer place
Under the covers stayin' safe and warm
You give me feelings that I adore

They start in my toes
Make me crinkle my nose
Wherever it goes
I always know
That you make me smile
Please stay for a while now
Just take your time
Wherever you go

What am I gonna say
When you make me feel this way?
I just, mmm

It starts in my toes
Makes me crinkle my nose
Wherever it goes
I always know
That you make me smile
Please stay for a while now
Just take your time
Wherever you go

I've been asleep for a while now
You tucked me in just like a child now
'Cause every time you hold me in your arms
I'm comfortable enough to feel your warmth

It starts in my soul
And I lose all control
When you kiss my nose
The feelin' shows
'Cause you make me smile
Baby just take your time now
Holdin' me tight

Wherever, wherever, where ever you go
Wherever, wherever, where ever you go


*
(Bubbly - Colby Caillat)

Just something to tell you :)

It's true!

Good things happen when they are least expected.. :)

Sometimes...

Sometimes there are things you have to let go, no matter how much you want them to be yours...